Post by dan2 on Jul 10, 2013 12:50:06 GMT -5
It's not been very fun lately. I won't be around yet again, and I can't say much for next week either. Work has been so incredibly busy with either funding 20 vehicles a day or dealing with the numerous breakdowns and/or accidents. This time of year my boss has vacations scheduled and that leaves lots of responsibility on me and for some reason the stress of that responsibility has been leaving me worse for wear. So between having to finance a whole year's worth of vehicles in three months, I got roped into going to Philly for an inspection of our fleet in that area. Then I have to come back to running the whole office in the absence of my boss.
I've been tired, sick to my stomach and having tension headaches back to back. It's all because no matter what I do, no matter how many hours I put in, nothing makes a bit of difference. I should accept it and move on, but I feel the need to try to control it and I can't. The only advice my doctor has for me is to take a regular dose of anti-anxiety meds and that shit just isn't good for me, it takes me out of life.
I stayed home today because I've thrown up every day since Friday due to nerves, with the exception of last night where the tension broke and I let it go, only to have the loose tension give me a crippling headache.
Sorry for all the bitching, but I figured I owed some sort of explanation for my being so absent lately. With everything going on with my Grandmother and her surgery, my job and the goddamned weather, I've just felt like total shit for months and a bit overwhelmed.
I've been tired, sick to my stomach and having tension headaches back to back. It's all because no matter what I do, no matter how many hours I put in, nothing makes a bit of difference. I should accept it and move on, but I feel the need to try to control it and I can't. The only advice my doctor has for me is to take a regular dose of anti-anxiety meds and that shit just isn't good for me, it takes me out of life.
I stayed home today because I've thrown up every day since Friday due to nerves, with the exception of last night where the tension broke and I let it go, only to have the loose tension give me a crippling headache.
Sorry for all the bitching, but I figured I owed some sort of explanation for my being so absent lately. With everything going on with my Grandmother and her surgery, my job and the goddamned weather, I've just felt like total shit for months and a bit overwhelmed.